Monday, February 9, 2015

The Green Eyed Monster

I have never been one to be jealous or envious of others. I am happy with what I have.  But lately I have been envious. Downright jealous I will admit.  Friends and family that are pregnant and having babies have me fighting off the green eyed monster like nobody's business.

Oh to be pregnant again... The best time of my life was spent while pregnant or home with my babies.  I will forever cherish the time I got to spend carrying my babies and being at home with them after  giving birth.  I loved being pregnant so much that I truly miss it. I have no desire for more children. We are done with that phase in our life but my heart longs for those years back when I was pregnant with Alexa and I had Aedan and Chloe running around as little people. It was truly magical. Even better was after I had Alexa and I was able to spend the 3 months at home with all three of them. What a wonderful time. Crazy to think that spending 24/7 with a newborn, a 2.5 year old and a 4 year old was fantastic, but oh yes, it was glorious.

The kids are great now in a different way. They are independent and each have wonderful personalities that intrigue me. Our family is complete and I find myself so content and in love even more now than in the early days of marriage. Life is good. No, life is great. And even though I'd LOVE to have those tiny babies back for a little while so I can rock them and snuggle them I know that the kids now are just as good in their own right. And I will just have to steal my kisses and hugs at bedtime or while they are sleeping or even on their way out the door.  So be gone green eyed monster, what was I thinking?  I have no time for you, my babies are tall and gangly .. but they are still my babies and they are all mine.