Wednesday, October 1, 2008

I need my memories

Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us. ~Oscar Wilde

I am so worried about forgetting something significant in my children's lives that I have been pretty good about updating baby books, taking photographs and just replaying information in my head over and over. So when I couldn't remember what time Alexa was born I started having heart palpitations this morning. I'm older, I know.. my memory got worse with each subsequent pregnancy and childbirth but short of having little yellow post-it notes all over the place I am doing my best to keep my memories fresh. I can tell you what I was wearing on my first date with Jim 15 years ago.. so when I forgot a time as important as this from just 6 months ago I freaked.

I want to remember how they smelled as a baby and when they first started to walk and just.. well... everything. I know it's impossible to remember everything but still I am doing my best to keep these memories alive so I can relay wonderful stories from their childhoods to my grandchildren when I am old and wrinkly.

I know the effort may seem futile and in the long run I can't remember EVERYTHING.. but I'm going to try my damndest to remember the happy and sad times, the not so bad times and everything in between .

just for future reference..
Baby Angel conceived on October 2, 2001 .. taken home to heaven on December 6, 2001.
Aedan was born on Tuesday, Nov. 11, 2003, weighing 9 pounds and .06 ounces at 3:52 pm.
Chloe was born on Friday, Oct. 14, 2005, weighing 7 pounds and 11 ounces at 9:26 am.
Alexa was born on Thursday, April 3, 2008, weighing 8 pounds, 9 ounces at 11:11 am.

Go my babies.. grow, dream, experience and live everyday to the fullest and I'll do my best to remember it well.

1 comment:

Christy said...

YOu totally made me cry!!! That was absolutely beautiful. What a loving mother you are.